"And the day came when the risk to remain tight in a bud was more painful than the risk it took to blossom."

-Anais Nin

My heart has been beating at different rhythm lately. It likes to speak to me mostly when I feel anxious. It wears my face as a mask in the romantic play of my life. Feeling scared and vulnerable in the world, I have kept it as a prisoner in the cage of my ribs. I can tell that it's tired of living off the old stories that my mind feeds it to keep it from growing. But now I find comfort in its syncopated beat, knowing that the off beats are just as important to make me feel complete and whole inside.

I guess what I am trying to say is this...

"By knowing yourself as the awareness in which phenomenal existence happens, you become free of dependency on phenomena and free of self seeking in situations, places, and conditions. In other words, what happens or doesn't happen is not that important anymore. Things lose their heaviness, their seriousness. A playfulness comes into your life. You recognize this world as a cosmic dance, the dance of form. No more and no less."  -Eckhart Tolle